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Observer said:
@Pipecarver it's been a rough day man.

I've been angry ALL FUCking day.

Holding all this shit in, going through all shit, observing it.

I don't have any weed lol.
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I'm so far removed from all that city stress out here in the boonies, we can hear the stars talking at night. No weed, would have me stressed right out though. My wife would be having issues with me I thinks.
 
Pipecarver said:
I'm so far removed from all that city stress out here in the boonies, we can hear the stars talking at night. No weed, would have me stressed right out though. My wife would be having issues with me I thinks.
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Wow man I had no idea things were so hard,I'm of zero help up here other than to be an ear to let you rant away. I just can't respond to the political circus you're in. We have our own issues but they pale to your turmoil
 
Pipecarver said:
Wow man I had no idea things were so hard,I'm of zero help up here other than to be an ear to let you rant away. I just can't respond to the political circus you're in. We have our own issues but they pale to your turmoil
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Yeah I don't go to detail on here or with anyone but.

Yea, I am IN the "homeless" shit, straight up struggling, I'm literally starving rn.

I don't wanna wine or turn my fuckin grow forum into a "therapy session" lol
Cause like earlier, not really the place? It's a "GROW" FORUM. AHH, BUT the "symbolism".

That's also what I LOVE GROWING so much, analogy, metaphor, PRODUCING something TO GIVE BACK, instead of always TAKING.
Or cry out or make my self appear or seem weak, or straight up low-IQ or be a "beggar" I'll do SOME shit before I fuckin stand out with a cup begging for money.
I've seem a dude solo stocking a fucking ATM before, and I can't fucking stop thinking about that.
I'm getting desperate because im fucking struggling and suffering.

Regulations have so much constraint, I am literally fucking poverty trapped, I'm peasant trapped and constrained.

And I'm a fucking idiot because I have no real skills???? Or a "trade labor skill"
But I'm smarter than that? I'm not fucking breaking my body and slaving my self to THIS FUCK ASSS SOCIETY OF MORONS.

Whatever.

I'm fucking struggling, I'm suffering. I'm fucking hurting, I'm fucking ANGRY, I'm breaking down.

But I'll rollercoaster back up, fucking eventually.

Thank you for letting me vent/rant
 
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Observer said:
Yeah I don't go to detail on here or with anyone but.

Yea, I am IN the "homeless" shit, straight up struggling, I'm literally starving rn.

I don't wanna wine or turn my fuckin grow forum into a "therapy session" lol

Or cry out or make my self appear or seem weak

Whatever.

I'm fucking struggling, I'm suffering. I'm fucking hurting, I'm fucking ANGRY, I'm breaking down.

But I'll rollercoaster back up, fucking eventually.

Thank you for letting me vent/rant
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I'm 73, believe me I've been through some shit, done time twice, along time ago now. I hit the drugs pretty hard for a long time, I seemed to settle in my 40's when we moved out east, since then I've been an upright citizen, pretty well behaving myself, You gotta find food man, not good not to eat. Are you out doors?
 
Pipecarver said:
Wow man I had no idea things were so hard,I'm of zero help up here other than to be an ear to let you rant away. I just can't respond to the political circus you're in. We have our own issues but they pale to your turmoil
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Yea and I don't even wanna ask


Ie, if I had millions, I'd send ya a 100000lb co2 tank and all the bells and whistles.
 
Pipecarver said:
I'm 73, believe me I've been through some shit, done time twice, along time ago now. I hit the drugs pretty hard for a long time, I seemed to settle in my 40's when we moved out east, since then I've been an upright citizen, pretty well behaving myself, You gotta find food man, not good not to eat. Are you out doors?
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I'm fortunately in a hotel for tonight, scheduled to checkout tomorrow....the day i start a new shitty fucking job.

But I think we can still buy another day for tomorrow........after that....really fucked.....till we get caught up on our paychecks.


I've been denied from like 10 fucking jobs. If these other fuckers hired me a fuckijg week or two ago I wouldn't be struggling as bad.

Or if I didn't fuck up 2 years ago.

How ever one can frame or blame it.
 
I'm not getting food tonight, I have 3 eggs and a Mac and cheese microwave cup that's it.

No utensils or spatulas to manipulate it with.

So fuck it.

Mind over matter right?

We fucking starving today.

My parents are shitbags in their own way, my entire family separated/divorced. Fuck my "elders" fuck my aunt/"uncle" or grandpa or cousins, they don't exist.

"Blood is family" no. "Family is "family'.
And I'm a fucking shit-bag too.

And her family is even more fucked up & fucked off.
 
I am "in the shit".

But still laughing and smiling SOME times....

Still trying to be a good human being and not a piece-of-shit.
 
Pipecarver said:
I'm 73, believe me I've been through some shit, done time twice, along time ago now. I hit the drugs pretty hard for a long time, I seemed to settle in my 40's when we moved out east, since then I've been an upright citizen, pretty well behaving myself, You gotta find food man, not good not to eat. Are you out doors?
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Yea I can't even realistically imagine that? Or "feel" that?

I'm turning 29, u 73.

That's around 2.5x my life experience.

Holy fuck bro.
sorry, Sir.

I've had suicidal thoughts since I was like 15, to escape this dumbass fucking world&/society.
Good job making it this far.
 
Observer said:
@Pipecarver hey, thank you.

For the "exhaust vent"
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Ya I'm an old fk and 30 ish was rough on me too, Living on a bicycle and in a tent in San Louis Obisbo California, warm at least but shoplifted for food, I was great at getting steaks out, Hey there were no Camera's then. don't get any idea's. I even lifted a 5lb ham in a can out one Easter. I was smooth short and blended in, large shirt It was easy til one year I went in for steak, got it....that was easy,I went for some Prawns I'd seen the first time, they'd seen me too and got me going back out with the prawns,overnight in the local jail with a promise to appear note. Ended up a $100 steak...back in 1977
lights out I gotta go.
 
Yooooo a hotel grow might be on the books now lol

Free electricity and water, fuck yea!


Let me get caught up.

If I can book everyday for just 90 days, and secure it, I'll grow a little plant in my fuckin hotel room lol.

This hotel and housekeeping won't fuck with me.
They just ask, "you book again" " or you leave today?

If it's a little plant it won't stink too much.

Thinking about it lol.


Would take a month before I'm in a better spot to seriously attempt it.

I'll fuckin do it.
Idgaf I miss Plant.

Smell soooo good
Feeeel so good.


And I can sell it to the mazzios stoners, lol.

This could work..........hehehehe

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Observer said:
Yooooo a hotel grow might be on the books now lol

Free electricity and water, fuck yea!


Let me get caught up.

If I can book everyday for just 90 days, and secure it, I'll grow a little plant in my fuckin hotel room lol.

This hotel and housekeeping won't fuck with me.
They just ask, "you book again" " or you leave today?

If it's a little plant it won't stink too much.

Thinking about it lol.


Would take a month before I'm in a better spot to seriously attempt it.

I'll fuckin do it.
Idgaf I miss Plant.

Smell soooo good
Feeeel so good.


And I can sell it to the mazzios stoners, lol.

This could work..........hehehehe

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If you’ve got a solid footing don’t screw it up or waste any funds. I get the frustration and impatience but play it smart. Baby steps. And save every cent you can for future or emergency use. You know shit can change over night.

Glad things are working out finally. Not knowing where your next meal or bed will be is a frightening experience. If your staying together as a family even more so. But don’t rush anything and keep trying to better your current situation. Put any extra energy you have into getting a better job or training/certification/license.

Best wishes bud. đź‘Š
 
Zen_seeker said:
If you’ve got a solid footing don’t screw it up or waste any funds. I get the frustration and impatience but play it smart. Baby steps. And save every cent you can for future or emergency use. You know shit can change over night.

Glad things are working out finally. Not knowing where your next meal or bed will be is a frightening experience. If your staying together as a family even more so. But don’t rush anything and keep trying to better your current situation. Put any extra energy you have into getting a better job or training/certification/license.

Best wishes bud. đź‘Š
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Solid words, thanks man.
 
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