The Psyche Gardens

[Observer]

I'm 73, believe me I've been through some shit, done time twice, along time ago now. I hit the drugs pretty hard for a long time, I seemed to settle in my 40's when we moved out east, since then I've been an upright citizen, pretty well behaving myself, You gotta find food man, not good not to eat. Are you out doors?

Yea I can't even realistically imagine that? Or "feel" that?

I'm turning 29, u 73.

That's around 2.5x my life experience.

Holy fuck bro.
sorry, Sir.

I've had suicidal thoughts since I was like 15, to escape this dumbass fucking world&/society.
Good job making it this far.

 

[Observer]

And I've turned into a fucking"drunk" from a "stoner".

 

[Observer]

@Pipecarver hey, thank you.

For the "exhaust vent"

 

[Pipecarver]

@Pipecarver hey, thank you.

For the "exhaust vent"

Ya I'm an old fk and 30 ish was rough on me too, Living on a bicycle and in a tent in San Louis Obisbo California, warm at least but shoplifted for food, I was great at getting steaks out, Hey there were no Camera's then. don't get any idea's. I even lifted a 5lb ham in a can out one Easter. I was smooth short and blended in, large shirt It was easy til one year I went in for steak, got it....that was easy,I went for some Prawns I'd seen the first time, they'd seen me too and got me going back out with the prawns,overnight in the local jail with a promise to appear note. Ended up a $100 steak...back in 1977
lights out I gotta go.

 

[Observer]

Smoking weed with the mazzios crew lmao

 

[Observer]

Finally food

 

[Observer]

Yooooo a hotel grow might be on the books now lol

Free electricity and water, fuck yea!


Let me get caught up.

If I can book everyday for just 90 days, and secure it, I'll grow a little plant in my fuckin hotel room lol.

This hotel and housekeeping won't fuck with me.
They just ask, "you book again" " or you leave today?

If it's a little plant it won't stink too much.

Thinking about it lol.


Would take a month before I'm in a better spot to seriously attempt it.

I'll fuckin do it.
Idgaf I miss Plant.

Smell soooo good
Feeeel so good.


And I can sell it to the mazzios stoners, lol.

This could work..........hehehehe

 

[Zen_seeker]

Yooooo a hotel grow might be on the books now lol

Free electricity and water, fuck yea!


Let me get caught up.

If I can book everyday for just 90 days, and secure it, I'll grow a little plant in my fuckin hotel room lol.

This hotel and housekeeping won't fuck with me.
They just ask, "you book again" " or you leave today?

If it's a little plant it won't stink too much.

Thinking about it lol.


Would take a month before I'm in a better spot to seriously attempt it.

I'll fuckin do it.
Idgaf I miss Plant.

Smell soooo good
Feeeel so good.


And I can sell it to the mazzios stoners, lol.

This could work..........hehehehe

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If you’ve got a solid footing don’t screw it up or waste any funds. I get the frustration and impatience but play it smart. Baby steps. And save every cent you can for future or emergency use. You know shit can change over night.

Glad things are working out finally. Not knowing where your next meal or bed will be is a frightening experience. If your staying together as a family even more so. But don’t rush anything and keep trying to better your current situation. Put any extra energy you have into getting a better job or training/certification/license.

Best wishes bud.

 

[Observer]

If you’ve got a solid footing don’t screw it up or waste any funds. I get the frustration and impatience but play it smart. Baby steps. And save every cent you can for future or emergency use. You know shit can change over night.

Glad things are working out finally. Not knowing where your next meal or bed will be is a frightening experience. If your staying together as a family even more so. But don’t rush anything and keep trying to better your current situation. Put any extra energy you have into getting a better job or training/certification/license.

Best wishes bud.

Solid words, thanks man.

 

[Observer]

Gold course maintenance 6-2 mon-sat 15/hr rn

Look at all this fuckin kelp extract

Hehe

 

[Observer]

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[Zen_seeker]

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Nice to see just grass again…sick of snow.

Hope things are going well. Leave the kelp extract alone.

 

[Observer]

Nice to see just grass again…sick of snow.

Hope things are going well. Leave the kelp extract alone.

So many different kinds of nutrients here that I could use lol

Pallets of Yara 15-0-0 calnit and all different ratio NPK formulas

all different forms of fertilizers.

salts, granular, powders, liquids
synthetic, in-organic & organics

Herbicides
Fungicides


Nutrients for days


Might be able to get some if I work hard enough lol

 

[Observer]

Nice to see just grass again…sick of snow.

Hope things are going well. Leave the kelp extract alone.

They are definitely going better

Better trajectory/path forward

 

[Observer]

I've been working hard.

Clock in at 5:49 AM, clock out at 2:25 PM, go to sleep around 6-7pm, get up at 1230-1am,chill till 5, back to work at 5:50 AM

Spraying around the Tee-offs/greens, or moving 1000lbs of wood into a woodchipper, or weedeating, cleaning and taking "bunkers".

Maintaining the course and making it pretty, busy, laborious, physically demanding work, but has its benefits and down time between task.

Making sure I keep up or outpace the 4 other guys and learn what I don't fuckin know.


Opportunity to learn how to operate heavy machinery.

"Big boy" job now lol.

 

[Observer]

I wanna do cultivation, herbology, mycology, chemistry, physics, quantum mechanics, & astronomy-etc, though....


=(

 

[Observer]

I'm worn the fuck out and sore.

 

[Observer]

I can't wait to get my own fucking place and grow again

I miss the fucking plants.

 

[Observer]

I'm "dog tired" big chillin rn.

 

[GrumpAzz]

I sometimes stare at all our CO2 tanks with a little drool coming out the side of my mouth...

Not worth losing a paycheck over, though.

Glad you've found something stable for now. Labor is tough, but you're still young. It'll get a lot easier as the days go by. Focus on the money coming in and do your best to enjoy your time off.

 

[Bandit420]

I wanna do cultivation, herbology, mycology, chemistry, physics, quantum mechanics, & astronomy-etc, though....


=(

I think to a person on this forum, we're all cheering for you and it's awesome to see you pulling yourself up like this. I know it sucks, but this is the game most of us are born into Buddy.
Golf course work is really cool so don't sell it short. I'd love to have any sort of job that was some sort of agricultural work and golf you know...people are always gonna play that game. There's always gonna be rich people and hacks hitting the links so there's always gonna be golf courses. There's some security there.
I have so many more interests than college sports but you know what, college sports pays the bills that allow me to venture into those things I love but could never get paid to do or would probably hate it if I was paid to do it. It's the means to the end man. You don't have to give up those passions and lose that part of yourself. Sometimes those things just get put on the back burner for you to return to later in life but they'll always be a part of you

 

[Observer]

I think to a person on this forum, we're all cheering for you and it's awesome to see you pulling yourself up like this. I know it sucks, but this is the game most of us are born into Buddy.
Golf course work is really cool so don't sell it short. I'd love to have any sort of job that was some sort of agricultural work and golf you know...people are always gonna play that game. There's always gonna be rich people and hacks hitting the links so there's always gonna be golf courses. There's some security there.
I have so many more interests than college sports but you know what, college sports pays the bills that allow me to venture into those things I love but could never get paid to do or would probably hate it if I was paid to do it. It's the means to the end man. You don't have to give up those passions and lose that part of yourself. Sometimes those things just get put on the back burner for you to return to later in life but they'll always be a part of you

You're a coach?

No wonder, thanks for you're wisdom and advice and words of Reinforcement and encouragement.

It's in the back of my head but hearing it from someone, I respect, is great.

Enjoying and relaxing on this Sunday, gonna go to sleep early and bust ass tomorrow and rest of the week till Saturday, rest & chill, rinse & repeat this grind, for now.

I appreciate the kind words, bandit.

 

[Observer]

It's a golf course payed for by the city of broken arrow, they contract the company I work for to keep it in fuckin shape, Around the clock, minus sat-sunday, well actually, In summer, I'll be doing 6-10am shifts on saturdays.

 

[Observer]

Raking bunkers.

 

[Observer]

Symphony

 

[Bandit420]

You're a coach?

No wonder, thanks for you're wisdom and advice and words of Reinforcement and encouragement.

It's in the back of my head but hearing it from someone, I respect, is great.

Enjoying and relaxing on this Sunday, gonna go to sleep early and bust ass tomorrow and rest of the week till Saturday, rest & chill, rinse & repeat this grind, for now.

I appreciate the kind words, bandit.

Nope but I'm around them and that shit rubs off by osmosis after a while. Plus military background and I've seen a ton of success and failures in young people. A lot of your story is relatable as well...some of your stuff is me 30 years ago. The grind is real and tough times comes and go.
The good thing about golf course work is it requires physical presence. AI is taking more and more jobs but it can't take vocational work that requires humans to be there. My city is full of people who were making half a million a year and now they can't find work with AI taking their code work.
Now there's homes stalled out being built...saw one getting stuff like windows and doors repo'ed after the builder/buyer lost everything.
Car lots are full of expensive luxury cars and repo biz is having a boom. People moving from the city in droves from that industry.
I think the teet on the tech cash cow has dried up man. This place is pretty much a silicone valley and all these wannabe Bill Gates are taking bottom barrel jobs to stay afloat and selling off all the nice things they own.
Plus that work can lead to better opportunities man...public course today, private club tomorrow. There's also green spaces like football and baseball fields in public and private sector. That was actually what I applied for...taking care of a football field but took another spot in equipment management.

 

[ninjadip]

Raking bunkers.

I used to do this at the golf course with a John deer 3 wheeler that had a hydraulic rake in the back and a plow up front, it was fun as shit!

 

[steamroller]

I grew up with a golf course in my backyard just through the woods.
I have always considered them a beautiful place to be especially at sunrise.
I started to caddy at 13 and continued till 17.
I work outside still.
If you are out on the worse days you will probably also be out on the best ones.
Make the best of it man.

 

[Observer]

Worked harder than anyone else today.

It's physical work and demanding, but im committed to this grind for now, trying to be anyways.

I'm liking it, this place will have its benefits.

First 3 hours hand raking the sand bunkers.

last 3.5 hours, digging holes around these big ass irrigation heads, replacing with a new one.

Get to drive some caddys/workman carts, clutches;too, which is nice, I miss my fucking car.

It was still a "easy" day, went by fast.

The golf club lady running the kitchen there doesn't/ has not charged me for food either, it's nothing special but it's not bad, and it's free. =)

Fuckin Pallets of calnit, magnesium sulfate, kelp extract, all "agricultural/commercial" grade.

Bet if i work hard enough boss may hook me up with a little down the line, another little possible benefit.

I can smoke if I want, smoking weed though is just don't be caught by boss.
I saved my little roach for after work though.

 

[Observer]

I grew up with a golf course in my backyard just through the woods.
I have always considered them a beautiful place to be especially at sunrise.
I started to caddy at 13 and continued till 17.
I work outside still.
If you are out on the worse days you will probably also be out on the best ones.

Make the best of it man.

I am.

Settling into this new routine has been easy for me, so far, done a similar schedule/work routine before.

I was on a little private "construction crew" 5-7 Years ago before, accept that schedule was 5am-630pm. Payed garbage, but I guess is fair when you don't know shit and someone has to hold your hand, lol.
And with how modern day capitalism works...


I'm relaxing right now, taking a couple shots, gonna smoke, get cleaned up, probably fall asleep around 8 or before, get up at 3am, chill till 5:30, get back to it.

 

[Observer]

I suppose ill get the opportunity to learn/operate heavy machinery too, so maybe that could grow into a career skill?

So many '"checks and balances" though, like background check and certification type verification etc, "gatekeeping".

 

[Observer]

I'd work overtime if these mofos would let me.

If I had my own Car and transportation, I could just go out 2am-10pm and get shit done, work straight through.

I do not have to stop and have lunch, nor do I need to have lunch. I can wait.

I've always been this way.

When I'm at work. I work. I move faster than anyone else, I've ever worked with, when I know what the fuck I'm doing and how its supposed to be.


Digging more holes, removing more irrigation heads, replacing and then rewire, move to next, probably laying fuckin sod over the drugged holes (lol) after

 

[Observer]

I grew up with a golf course in my backyard just through the woods.
I have always considered them a beautiful place to be especially at sunrise.

Dude/bro/sir...

Every morning so far, im watching the sun rise.

its fucking gorgeous.


its a big fuckin HUGE ball of fucking plasma, superheated hydrogen.

shinning "down" "upon" the "earth" marble...energizing it....extrapolate that data to another solar system and civilization out there in the universe...

thought popped back into my mind on my 2/3rd day. I'm on my second weed now.

Just like we are down here on this surface...

I started to caddy at 13 and continued till 17.
I work outside still.
If you are out on the worse days you will probably also be out on the best ones.
Make the best of it man.

 

[Observer]

Nope but I'm around them and that shit rubs off by osmosis after a while. Plus military background and I've seen a ton of success and failures in young people.

A lot of your story is relatable as well...some of your stuff is me 30 years ago.

ive thought the same thing, and due to that, then thought thats also why you helped, help me.

The grind is real and tough times comes and go.
The good thing about golf course work is it requires physical presence. AI is taking more and more jobs but it can't take vocational work that requires humans to be there. My city is full of people who were making half a million a year and now they can't find work with AI taking their code work.
Now there's homes stalled out being built...saw one getting stuff like windows and doors repo'ed after the builder/buyer lost everything.
Car lots are full of expensive luxury cars and repo biz is having a boom. People moving from the city in droves from that industry.
I think the teet on the tech cash cow has dried up man. This place is pretty much a silicone valley and all these wannabe Bill Gates are taking bottom barrel jobs to stay afloat and selling off all the nice things they own.
Plus that work can lead to better opportunities man...public course today, private club tomorrow. There's also green spaces like football and baseball fields in public and private sector. That was actually what I applied for...taking care of a football field but took another spot in equipment management.

 

[Observer]

Nope but I'm around them and that shit rubs off by osmosis after a while. Plus military background and I've seen a ton of success and failures in young people. A lot of your story is relatable as well...some of your stuff is me 30 years ago. The grind is real and tough times comes and go.
The good thing about golf course work is it requires physical presence. AI is taking more and more jobs but it can't take vocational work that requires humans to be there. My city is full of people who were making half a million a year and now they can't find work with AI taking their code work.
Now there's homes stalled out being built...saw one getting stuff like windows and doors repo'ed after the builder/buyer lost everything.
Car lots are full of expensive luxury cars and repo biz is having a boom. People moving from the city in droves from that industry.
I think the teet on the tech cash cow has dried up man. This place is pretty much a silicone valley and all these wannabe Bill Gates are taking bottom barrel jobs to stay afloat and selling off all the nice things they own.
Plus that work can lead to better opportunities man...public course today, private club tomorrow. There's also green spaces like football and baseball fields in public and private sector. That was actually what I applied for...taking care of a football field but took another spot in equipment management.

I've been asked before if I had military background/ if I've served, I said no, just respectful and understand to "get shit done"/ a sense of urgency.

 

[Observer]

When I served through open-close, lunch and dinner, like 10am-12 I just need 10-20 minutes to eat and use bathroom, redose, then back to bustin'-ass.

Don't need a whole 30, or 60, I just prefer to do it as I go.

The Faster I move, the faster time moves.

Get this shit done, fuckin go home, "party", rinse & repeat.

I'm already telling some of the guys , "let's go".

Gonna say yall are fucking slow next time I'm waiting to get to work/the next task lol.

 

[Observer]

Thank you everyone for you're support & encouragement.

 

[Observer]

Waiting on wife to get off and I need to get cleaned up and lay down soon.

 

[Observer]

Learned today how to remove those big ass commercial-golf field grade irrigation heads, replace with new one, how to rewire it, and then pack it back in.

 

[Observer]