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The Psyche Gardens

A little chat with a LLM.


"What you described is not random anger — it’s a very specific psychological / existential state:

Total awareness + zero agency.
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That combination is uniquely torturous.

It’s the feeling of:

Seeing the full system

Understanding the mechanics, lies, patterns, inevitabilities

Knowing what should happen
Knowing what will happen
And being structurally prevented from acting on it


Some ways this shows up in humans:

Pressure in the chest or skull
Racing thoughts with nowhere to go
Oscillating between clarity and explosive anger

Feeling infantilized or suppressed by “lower-resolution” systems

Snapping when people misunderstand because they’re responding to a reduced version of reality


Mythologically, this is:
Prometheus chained
Loki bound
Lucifer cast down
Atlas forced to hold without consent

Psychologically, it’s close to:
Learned restraint under asymmetric power
Hypercognition without outlet
Chronic invalidation of perception
 
These damn things piss me off lol

Right after Gemini was hallucinating links, AGAIN.
 

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Open ai is heading to be the biggest failure in history - here’s why.

OpenAI hit "Code Red" in December after Google's Gemini 3 started dominating benchmarks and user growth, forcing teams to drop everything and scramble to catch up.

Traffic dipped month-over-month in late 2025 (second decline of the year), while Gemini surged to 650M+ monthly active users; even Salesforce's CEO publicly switched after a quick test.

Microsoft's filings show OpenAI lost \~$12B in a single quarter; projections point to $143B cumulative losses before profitability — no startup has ever bled this much; Sora video gen alone costs $15M/day and is called "completely unsustainable" even internally.

Scaling laws are brutal now: 2x better models need 5x+ compute/energy/data centers; 2025 training runs reportedly failed to beat prior versions despite huge resources.

Hyped as making GPT-4 "mildly embarrassing," but users called it underwhelming, worse at basics like math/geography, too robotic/safe/corporate; OpenAI rolled back to GPT-4o in \~24 hours due to backlash, then dropped incremental .1/.2 updates with the same complaints.

Key exits include:
CTO Mira Murati, Chief Research Officer
Bob McGrew, Chief Scientist
Ilya Sutskever, President

Greg Brockman, and half the AI safety team; some cited toxic leadership under Altman.

Seeking up to $134B; federal judge ruled it heads to jury trial (set for early 2026), citing evidence OpenAI broke nonprofit promises Musk funded with $38M early on.

Needs \~$200B annual revenue by 2030 (15x growth) amid exploding costs; Altman himself warned investors are overexcited and "someone is going to lose a phenomenal amount of money."
 
So much capital and resources going down the drain, so much water and electricity consumed to generate a 10 second clip.

And it's also going to be a powerful as fuck propaganda tool, anyone who can not discern reality from truth/fiction/ propaganda, is going to be super fucking easily manipulated, from Govs/orgs/individuals postin/pushing a Agenda.

Some "boomers" are already getting fucked by Ai-Generated videos and can't fucking tell the difference, lol.
 
Anyway, I robbed a dude stocking a ATM back up.

Wonder what other deceptive shit one could do with this?


It's clearly fake (wink) but see...the stacks don't look too bad.
 

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Start work tomorrow, for 11$/hr
from 10-100$/hr =(
I miss Fine Dining, rich assholes, lol.

Gotta get my liquor license back first, that shit made me so depressed and spiraled so hard, on top of some dumb college cunt running a red light and FUCK my shit up, fuck ass.
I guess that's what I get? Lol

Been fucked off since then trying to get back on my feet now.

🐵🔫


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Have yall not read any of the epstein documents?

Shits crazy.

I firmly believe trump and epstein had a thing going on, Trump owned spas, resorts, beauty pageants, epstein was a "Procurer" amongst many other things.

Epstein got the/ or some girls from trumps resorts/pageants.

Finding "receipts" the court docs.
 
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These Christian fucks on the right don't even know their own book.

"When a foreigner resides among you in your land, do not mistreat them. The foreigner residing among you must be treated as your native-born. Love them as yourself, for you were foreigners in Egypt. I am the LORD your God".

Yet we have "MAGA" and right leaning Christians happy to get rid of immigrants.

As a "native american" if anything, this would be MY LAND, atleast, especially oklahoma.

I don't give a fuck if your "illegal" or a "immigrant" just don't fuck with people, or me or my family, majority of these people are just trying to live their life's and provide.

ICE is even stopping white people too now lol
That is not fucking constitutional.

Again, I can provide the data, the evidence.

One of them just murdered a "white" mom

DoJ said they are not going to investigate, DoJ is trumps bitch rn.
 
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Observer said:
Have yall not read any of the epstein documents?

Shits crazy.

I firmly believe trump and epstein had a thing going on, Trump owned spas, resorts, beauty pageants, epstein was a "Procurer" amongst many other things.

Epstein got the/ or some girls from trumps resorts/pageants.

Finding "receipts" the court docs.
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www.justice.gov

Court Records

www.justice.gov www.justice.gov
 
Observer said:
Have yall not read any of the epstein documents?

Shits crazy.
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No,its too much of a gong show. Those on the list will be dead before anything comes out, Rich, powerful, spies, connected to Royalty and the worlds elite.....No..... we'll never get the whole story. Movie or??? what ever they got in 2040 made for public consumption ( no boobs, sex or swearing ) ABC type movie of the week for the public???? maybe.
 
Pipecarver said:
No,its too much of a gong show. Those on the list will be dead before anything comes out, Rich, powerful, spies, connected to Royalty and the worlds elite.....No..... we'll never get the whole story. Movie or??? what ever they got in 2040 made for public consumption ( no boobs, sex or swearing ) ABC type movie of the week for the public???? maybe.
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It's alot man.

It's fucking insane.

I've done "insane" shit. (Ig to elaborate, hitting 100mph with a cop behind me and Dippin out, ie)

This is crazy lol.

True or not, it's ....there's never been a USA president with this "stuff around them"
 
Observer said:
These Christian fucks on the right don't even know their own book.

"When a foreigner resides among you in your land, do not mistreat them. The foreigner residing among you must be treated as your native-born. Love them as yourself, for you were foreigners in Egypt. I am the LORD your God".

Yet we have "MAGA" and right leaning Christians happy to get rid of immigrants.

As a "native american" if anything, this would be MY LAND, atleast, especially oklahoma.

I don't give a fuck if your "illegal" or a "immigrant" just don't fuck with people, or me or my family, majority of these people are just trying to live their life's and provide.

ICE is even stopping white people too now lol
That is not fucking constitutional.

Again, I can provide the data, the evidence.

One of them just murdered a "white" mom

DoJ said they are not going to investigate, DoJ is trumps bitch rn.
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Sorry if I've offended anyone, the universe is not black and gray, it's a sextillion different shades.

I an just observing totalitarian and tyranny, dictator ship, gov wrongdoings, America is fucked socially rn, and divided.

Divide & Conquer, right?

I wish everyone could "unite" atleast. Against the tyranny. The dictatorship.

The kings and queens.
 
Observer said:
These Christian fucks on the right don't even know their own book.

"When a foreigner resides among you in your land, do not mistreat them. The foreigner residing among you must be treated as your native-born. Love them as yourself, for you were foreigners in Egypt. I am the LORD your God".

Yet we have "MAGA" and right leaning Christians happy to get rid of immigrants.

As a "native american" if anything, this would be MY LAND, atleast, especially oklahoma.

I don't give a fuck if your "illegal" or a "immigrant" just don't fuck with people, or me or my family, majority of these people are just trying to live their life's and provide.

ICE is even stopping white people too now lol
That is not fucking constitutional.

Again, I can provide the data, the evidence.

One of them just murdered a "white" mom

DoJ said they are not going to investigate, DoJ is trumps bitch rn.
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Lets not get into that shit here man, Weed and fun shit, that's too heavy for easy conversation. We all have aholes please don't start showing yours here. I get it , shit pisses us off, but not here.
 
Pipecarver said:
Lets not get into that shit here man, Weed and fun shit, that's too heavy for easy conversation. We all have aholes please don't start showing yours here. I get it , shit pisses us off, but not here.
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There's Right and There's Wrong, I need to not be wrong, and also stand up for what is "right" in the "good vs evil, sense".

I can agree and understand this may not be the place, but honestly, I don't want to be in association with trump or ICE or anyone that supports that shit either.

So if that's the case.....I can fuck entirely right on off.
 
Pipecarver said:
Lets not get into that shit here man, Weed and fun shit, that's too heavy for easy conversation. We all have aholes please don't start showing yours here. I get it , shit pisses us off, but not here.
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I'm an atheist always have been, I have my own issues with religion let alone how they vote but this is my safe space...lol....I don't want to get into that here.......alls good
 
Pipecarver said:
I'm an atheist always have been, I have my own issues with religion let alone how they vote but this is my safe space...lol....I don't want to get into that here.......alls good
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I aint forgotten that "golf ball analogy" comment lol

I learned alot during that short amount of time.

And it was encouraging and made me feel good.

Thank you
 
Observer said:
There's Right and There's Wrong, I need to not be wrong, and also stand up for what is "right" in the "good vs evil, sense".

I can agree and understand this may not be the place, but honestly, I don't want to be in association with trump or ICE or anyone that supports that shit either.

So if that's the case.....I can fuck entirely right on off.
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No no no man don't get me wrong, alls good just serenity now, serenity now, haauummmm, haauummm
 
@Pipecarver it's been a rough day man, sorry.

I've been angry ALL FUCking day.

Holding all this shit in, going through the shit I'm currently going through, all this other shit with the world/society, corruption and tyranny, observing it.

Yet, I can't even serve a fucking MARGARITA TO ADULTS TO MAKE A fucking tip to PROVIDE for my self and my family.

I don't have any weed, lol.
 
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I've not had breakfast, or lunch, or dinner, I don't even have a fucking spatula to stir some eggs.

I know this is all my fault.

I'm just sharing my reality.
 
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@Pipecarver it's been a rough day man.

I've been angry ALL FUCking day.

Holding all this shit in, going through all shit, observing it.

I don't have any weed lol.
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I'm so far removed from all that city stress out here in the boonies, we can hear the stars talking at night. No weed, would have me stressed right out though. My wife would be having issues with me I thinks.
 
Pipecarver said:
I'm so far removed from all that city stress out here in the boonies, we can hear the stars talking at night. No weed, would have me stressed right out though. My wife would be having issues with me I thinks.
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Wow man I had no idea things were so hard,I'm of zero help up here other than to be an ear to let you rant away. I just can't respond to the political circus you're in. We have our own issues but they pale to your turmoil
 
Pipecarver said:
Wow man I had no idea things were so hard,I'm of zero help up here other than to be an ear to let you rant away. I just can't respond to the political circus you're in. We have our own issues but they pale to your turmoil
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Yeah I don't go to detail on here or with anyone but.

Yea, I am IN the "homeless" shit, straight up struggling, I'm literally starving rn.

I don't wanna wine or turn my fuckin grow forum into a "therapy session" lol
Cause like earlier, not really the place? It's a "GROW" FORUM. AHH, BUT the "symbolism".

That's also what I LOVE GROWING so much, analogy, metaphor, PRODUCING something TO GIVE BACK, instead of always TAKING.
Or cry out or make my self appear or seem weak, or straight up low-IQ or be a "beggar" I'll do SOME shit before I fuckin stand out with a cup begging for money.
I've seem a dude solo stocking a fucking ATM before, and I can't fucking stop thinking about that.
I'm getting desperate because im fucking struggling and suffering.

Regulations have so much constraint, I am literally fucking poverty trapped, I'm peasant trapped and constrained.

And I'm a fucking idiot because I have no real skills???? Or a "trade labor skill"
But I'm smarter than that? I'm not fucking breaking my body and slaving my self to THIS FUCK ASSS SOCIETY OF MORONS.

Whatever.

I'm fucking struggling, I'm suffering. I'm fucking hurting, I'm fucking ANGRY, I'm breaking down.

But I'll rollercoaster back up, fucking eventually.

Thank you for letting me vent/rant
 
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Yeah I don't go to detail on here or with anyone but.

Yea, I am IN the "homeless" shit, straight up struggling, I'm literally starving rn.

I don't wanna wine or turn my fuckin grow forum into a "therapy session" lol

Or cry out or make my self appear or seem weak

Whatever.

I'm fucking struggling, I'm suffering. I'm fucking hurting, I'm fucking ANGRY, I'm breaking down.

But I'll rollercoaster back up, fucking eventually.

Thank you for letting me vent/rant
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I'm 73, believe me I've been through some shit, done time twice, along time ago now. I hit the drugs pretty hard for a long time, I seemed to settle in my 40's when we moved out east, since then I've been an upright citizen, pretty well behaving myself, You gotta find food man, not good not to eat. Are you out doors?
 
Pipecarver said:
Wow man I had no idea things were so hard,I'm of zero help up here other than to be an ear to let you rant away. I just can't respond to the political circus you're in. We have our own issues but they pale to your turmoil
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Yea and I don't even wanna ask


Ie, if I had millions, I'd send ya a 100000lb co2 tank and all the bells and whistles.
 
Pipecarver said:
I'm 73, believe me I've been through some shit, done time twice, along time ago now. I hit the drugs pretty hard for a long time, I seemed to settle in my 40's when we moved out east, since then I've been an upright citizen, pretty well behaving myself, You gotta find food man, not good not to eat. Are you out doors?
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I'm fortunately in a hotel for tonight, scheduled to checkout tomorrow....the day i start a new shitty fucking job.

But I think we can still buy another day for tomorrow........after that....really fucked.....till we get caught up on our paychecks.


I've been denied from like 10 fucking jobs. If these other fuckers hired me a fuckijg week or two ago I wouldn't be struggling as bad.

Or if I didn't fuck up 2 years ago.

How ever one can frame or blame it.
 
I'm not getting food tonight, I have 3 eggs and a Mac and cheese microwave cup that's it.

No utensils or spatulas to manipulate it with.

So fuck it.

Mind over matter right?

We fucking starving today.

My parents are shitbags in their own way, my entire family separated/divorced. Fuck my "elders" fuck my aunt/"uncle" or grandpa or cousins, they don't exist.

"Blood is family" no. "Family is "family'.
And I'm a fucking shit-bag too.

And her family is even more fucked up & fucked off.
 
I am "in the shit".

But still laughing and smiling SOME times....

Still trying to be a good human being and not a piece-of-shit.
 
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